I find myself feeling overwhelmed sometimes. The ache of letting too much get in the way debilitates me. I know that this is my anxiety crawling out. Oftentimes I'm able to work through it, but sometimes it overtakes me. And I'm lost. Without the motivation or the wherewithal to get out.
Being in the moment. Truly, completely in the moment, can have the same effect. My goal of staying present, of being alive for my life, through all the moments, had been a sweet little ride so far in 2021, but then Wednesday happened, when unrest & anarchy erupted in our nation's capital. My heart pounded, beating wild with fear & rage, as I read about the terror. Tears could not stop falling from my eyes. I was shaking & afraid.
It's excruciating the pain & the sadness that human beings can cause such horror. It makes me want to hide, to dissolve the reality & sit unaware of the present. But. To sit with the sorrow. To make space for it. To breathe words of prayer & love to wash over the people involved. True, there are injustices in the world. And just as true, there is great beauty. Even in the cracks & in the dark places.
What happened is an absolute tragedy. We need to learn & we need to do better. I vow to teach my children the value of life, of honor, of truth. To bring an awareness of justice for the world, for every living being. We have to learn.
Oscar Wilde said, "every saint has a past & every sinner has a future." There can still be hope, even when it feels like there is only despair.
"Lokah Samastah Sukhino Bhavantu" is a Sanskrit prayer, meaning, "May all beings everywhere be happy & free, and may the thoughts, words, & actions of my own life contribute in some way to that happiness & to that freedom for all."
So, I will return to my breath awake, reclaim my body, the rhythm of my heart following a slower pace. I will regain sight, seeing the light shining in the distance. And overwhelm will not overtake me. It will motivate me.
Yoga Sutra(sutra is the Sanskrit word meaning "thread") 1.1 states, "Atha yoga anushasanam," translated as "now, the teachings of yoga." Atha means "now."
What is happening now with you? In your body? In your mind? In your heart? Come back to yourself in this moment to notice. It is a seemingly simple act of awareness, but is so often neglected. Check in with yourself now. Notice & feel.
Be wide awake for your life. Savor your days. Stay in love with the world, how perfectly imperfect it may be. Keep space for peace & compassion in your heart for all of creation, especially those whose vision may not align with yours.
Look in the mirror today & see yourself, exactly as you are, with your scars & your lines & your memories. Smile knowing you are living your life, unafraid to begin again, again & again.
We are in this together. We need each other.
A prayer of peace unites our hearts today.
Just for Now
by Danna Faulds Just for now,
Without asking how, let yourself sink into stillness.
Just for now, lay down the weight You so patiently bear upon your shoulders.
Feel the earth receive you, And the infinite expanse of the sky grow even wider, as your awareness reaches up to meet it.
Just for now, Allow a wave of breath to enliven your experience. Breathe out whatever blocks you from the truth.
Just for now, Be boundless, free, with awakened energy tingling in your hands and feet.
Drink in the possibility Of being who and what you really are – So fully alive that the world looks different, Newly born and vibrant, just for now."